I can't put much here, because I do not have the privacy and solitude
I'd need, in order to gather and process my experiences. But these are
the basic things that have recently come to mind. (pun intended ;-)
People are now saying that the technological capabilities of remote mind control did not exist until recently or that it is only "on the horizon" BUT THIS IS NOT TRUE! Evidence that these types of crimes were happening since World War Two are surfacing and my experiences say that they were in use on humanity since at least the 1970s.
In my personal situation, there is a magnitude of obvious remote mind control intrusions happening to people whom I've been closest to. Just the fact that they suddenly turn against me for no apparent reason proves mind control. The fact that they do not seem to care that I am being tortured and slowly destroyed proves the mind control. Just the fact that they jump to degrading conclusions, instead of taking the time to investigate this proves mind control. Just the fact that they carelessly and happily carry on with their lives while someone they love is being destroyed. . .proves the mind control. But these are minor forms of proof.
* I have felt unexplainable negative feelings toward people for no apparent reason. This happened during the time of my separation from my family of origin in the early 1990s. I believe that they were being technologically brainwashed against me and I against them. This has also happened with a few friends. At the time I was either baffled by my negative thoughts or thought it was my intuition and I pulled away from them. Now I fully believe that I was being mind controlled during the process of isolating me from my loved ones - both family and friends. It appears that the opposite has also happened to me, in efforts to make me trust people whom I would normally not want to associate with. After these times, I have often thought that I must have been drugged, but this was before i realized the technological mind control and perhaps it is stronger than I realize.
* In the 1980s, after two surgeries on my spine I suddenly gained an interest in drawing, which I had never even had a bit of interest in prior to this or since then. And its something that the perpetrators have tried to push me toward - as if they have decided what I should be doing with my life, irregardless of my TRUE life purpose or natural desires. I have witnessed these sorts of sudden changes in my children and sisters as well. Sometimes it almost seems like our brains - our interests are swapped, although this seems impossible. But is it?
* From 2006 to 2011 I was being mind controlled in ways that created anxiety with approaching storms in efforts to sabotage my prophetic dream forewarnings of upcoming flood disasters. It seems to have worked, but a few of them hit right on before the sabotaging began. And I believe that the disasters I was picking up on were to be instigated with criminal use of weather modification technologies. They were not natural. Armageddon is preventable.
* The mind control often inflicts uncharacteristic feelings, like anger or apathy or fear or sadness. I have experienced this at strategic times and when what I feel in my heart does not match what is in my head. One example of this is when they tried making me angry with my X husband at my daughter’s wedding. I was surprised with how strong it was, but it was not effective, because I felt no such feelings in my heart.
* I am sometimes inflicted with debilitating levels of mind control when I write. When this is happening I forget how to spell things and either do not type words or I type only half of a word when I thought I’d types the whole thing...etc. This is happening more recently than ever. When I try to write about my experiences with being targeted my mind often starts going blank and I forget memories and ideas almost as quickly as they come to mind. This is happening to me as I write this mind control part of this book. I am having to pull most of it from my past writings.
* In the mid 1980s I had felt baffled by the way I'd suddenly wake up and be extremely alert at evening college classes after spending all day taking care of my two young children and a home. This was not like me. Though I am not totally stupid, (maybe ;-) it was unusual for me to be making the deans list while basically working from 5 am to 10pm and waking with my daughter in the middle of every night. I am, and had always been, a person who needs 8 hours sleep and a calm, uncluttering life style, in order to function well. Even, at the time, I thought it was strange. Now that I am aware of the technologies being used on us, I feel certain that there was some sort of mind control and energy inducing stuff going on.
* For decades I have had periods faint sharp pains shooting into the top of my head. My daughter has had the same thing. And there have been times when parts of my face become numb. . .especially my upper lip. When this happens I sometimes feel sever levels of mental numbness and confusion.
* In 2004, as manipulations continued being orchestrated to destroy the renewed relationship between my father and I, the criminals who were targeting us began trying to make me think that my father was a pedophile. But let me back up a bit. . .
In the previous year they had sent my father some sort of email or letter that he had thought was from me. When he laced into me about things that made no sense to me I knew a deception was happening and blamed my sisters. I would not close the door on him and worked hard to get him to realize that my sister was trying to destroy our relationship. (This was being done shortly after my little brother’s sudden death, which was followed by my cousin’s sudden death.)
He refused to believe me and refused to show me the letter that he persistently thought was from me, which STILL baffles me. Its like I never even got a chance to see what he was judging and degrading me for. My sisters still may have been involved. And my intuition is now telling me that my niece may have been also. I believe that my niece is a mind control victim since serving in the Coast Guard. But no matter who it was done through, it surely came from those who are targeting us.
Around May of 2004, after my last conversation with my father, when he tried to convince me that I am mentally ill, I had prayed for answers and then had an unusual dream which showed my father laying on top of me and me turning away...etc. This was like a picture in my head as I woke. . .not like one of my real dreams. But, at the time I trusted it as a real dream, because I did not know I was being targeted and knew nothing about the psychotronic weapons and that they are capable of projecting images/dreams into a person’s brain.
Unfortunately, I believed it and it broke my heart - LITERALLY broke my heart, because I just would have never thought that my father could do such a thing. The pain cut as deep as my love for my him and is with me still. The hell that BOTH my father and I have been put through with this is close to unspeakable. I feel certain that there were a lot of other manipulations around all this which I am not aware of. Many of his behaviors spell out that he is a severe technological mind control victim. It is only recently that I am realizing that people whom I had been close to had been receiving emails, phone messages and letters that were not from me, through that time period. The result has been successful isolation of me from my family and everyone whom I had been close to. . .which has hurt ALL of us in ways that I can not even express at this point.
* I have experienced periods of debilitating numbness. . .like not even having the energy to think, at times when my body was suddenly bloating and faint sharp pains were shooting into my head. In 2003 and 2004 I had lost a lot of time just roaming in circles and being unable to make decisions or hold thoughts in my head. I believe that this is how they sabotaged me when I was needing to relocate and settle down.
* There was one time when I woke with blood on my pillow and a sore on my ear or head and did not know where it came from. Now I wonder if they installed a microchip.
* There have been times when I suddenly started thinking like someone I know - thoughts that were completely foreign to my nature. And I had perceived it as either intuition or God making me "experience what I’d judged." Among the worst of these were desires to steal or to prostitute myself or to be a married man's mistress or to squander my money, instead of planning for the future...etc. It was usually things that were foreign to my nature and that I had actually looked down on other people for doing. . .to some degree. These experiences are what has helped me to realize that the types of mind control that are being used on us can not force us to do anything that is not already a natural issue. For example, no matter how hard they try, they can not turn an honest person into a thief. However, I have on several occasions suddenly found myself saying something that was completely out of character to the point of my wondering what on earth I had said it for. These were usually little white lie types of things. . .or unusual exaggerations of what I already felt or thought. One that now comes to mind happened in the early 1990s when I was still with my husband: We were about to empty the dishwasher and I turned to him and said, "No leave it. The maid can do it." And it shocked me more than him, because he thought I was just joking. I had to try to write it off as something like some sort of past life memory re-surfacing, because I had no idea where it came from. I'd never had a maid. With all that said, I have recently realized that, when a victim is inflicted with extreme levels of emotional trauma, or certain types of drugs, on top of the microwave mind control. . .almost anything can happen. This is extremely dangerous!
* I have lost count of the times when I've ended up in an emergency room with medically unexplainable symptoms. The last time was in 2010 (maybe 2011) when I suddenly could not walk or stand and the room started spinning and I started vomiting and could hardly control a bowel movement and urination. This took place in a store where an ambulance was called and I was whisked off to a batch of baffled doctors and recovered within about 24 hours. It appears that I was surrounded by a few puppets during this process, because the EMT seemed to have already been convinced that my condition was due to drugs. (I do not take drugs. . .not even pharameceuticals unless I have to) But I felt like I had been inflicted with something, perhaps from criminally contaminated water. However, now that I am aware of the technologies being used on me, I feel that it was most likely caused by microwaves being shot into my brain.
* There was a VERY strange period of about three months in 2004 when I weirdly craved one beer a day and often acted on it. I do not even like beer and had never done this before or after this time period! I believe it was due to mind control.
I believe that I have gone through periods of being drugged from the early 1990s to around 2010, because I was also drawn to a few relationships with men whom I was not even attracted to. I just numbly went through the motions - not really wanting to say yes or no. I had often felt like a zombie. This has lessened A LOT since I started realizing more and started guarding my water and food. (particularly my water.)
* There are two occasions when I had seizures (This was in the late 1990s and in 2002) On both occasions I was with someone. The first time, he said that I’d died - had literally stopped breathing for up to a couple minutes with my eyes wide open. (My body had even let go of the full bladder I'd had!) This happened at work and was quite embarrassing! The second time was more like an epileptic fit that had my limbs flailing. Both incidents began with nausea and a weird feeling in my head that I can not explain. It was not like anything I had ever felt before or since.
* I feel certain that remotely inflicted technological mind control intrusions have often blocked my instincts shoved me toward trusting people whom I would normally not have trusted and also to distrust people who are trustworthy. This was more effective when I was not aware of the technologies.
And if I dare dive a little deeper into realms that will be difficult for most people to believe;
* I have witnessed unexplainable personality swaps in my healthy children as well as other unexplainable personality changes in mentally healthy adults. I remember telling a friend, in the early 1990s that "each time I think I have my children figured out they swap habits on me!" I said it as a joke, but it was really happening. Example of this: One daughter was messy and had to be forced to clean her room and the other was very neat. Then they suddenly swapped rolls. And this went back and forth through their childhood, and involved many different scenarios. I knew it was not natural - not normal and was baffled by it. Now I know.
* I have also repeatedly experienced people acting (or reacting) as if they think they have heard me say something that I have not said. I think that sounds and recordings can be remotely directed at someone who is not micro chipped. Can you imagine the cruel games that can be played on people with this?
* I think that, in the past 4 years, as I fight to expose the targeting, I've sometimes been mind controlled into pointing fingers at things, which I'm not sure of, because my heart has wanted to remain neutral on the parts that I do not have direct experience with. ;-) Are you laughing? Seriously, though.
This happened in early 2012 when I suddenly started blaming only HAARP for what was happening BEFORE HAARP was constructed, so there was obvious interference. This also happened right around the time when I had strongly intuited that Russia is responsible for a lot of the targeting and a covert take over of the USA. I have been repeatedly brainwashed into forgetting or disbelieving that Russia is a serious threat to us. And this, in itself, says a lot. There is obviously other similar technologies, like the Russian SURA, which have the same capabilities. I had known this, and had written about it BEFORE I was brainwashed into blaming only HAARP. There exists a confusing array of manipulations set up to lead us into the wrong directions and hide the Truths. But much can be learned just by watching this process - just by noticing what the criminal operatives try to steer us away from and point us toward.
Voice to Skull (V2K) Experiences
V2K is the military term for voice to skull transmitions of
sound through electromagnetic frequencies - microwaves.
My "V2K" experiences have not been like those of other Targeted Individuals. But I hear that it is common for different people to be targeted in different ways. Mine have mostly been inflicted as I’m waking or during meditation. . .as if the voices were in a dream or coming from God. This was perhaps done this way on me because of my spiritual focus and the fact that I had been logging and analyzing my dreams.
I trusted the instructions, because I had trusted my dreams and visions and had no knowledge of mind control technologies - psychotronic weapons or the criminal surveillance I am a prisoner to. And none of the messages were bad.
For a long time I wanted to deny some of these experiences, because in facing the intrusive abuse I also have to face the fact that it was not God who spoke to me - that most of my life has been a delusion that lead me down multitudes of wrong roads by criminals who cruelly deceived me and deprived me from the chance to follow my own heart - my own instincts and the ONLY True God. Some examples of my V2K experiences are:
* The pen name I used for a number of years came from a voice saying, "You are Namatari" during a time when I was meditating in the early 1990s. (I realized, in the spring of 2007, that it may have come from a dark source and stopped using the name.)
* I woke to a voice saying, "You will now experience all that you judge," in the late 1990s. This was followed by several years of inflictions of other people's thoughts and feelings. I believe this was all being done with psychotronic weapons.
* In August 2001 I woke to a voice saying, "Go to Hawaii," after I began realizing that my TRULY prophetic dreams had been warning of a darkness coming over Concord, NH and that the public water supply was being contaminated by criminals who were working "underground"...etc. I went to Hawaii and somehow completely forgot the dreams and most of my pets missing or dead, home burned down, friend suddenly dieing and an array of other problems also surrounding my children, which included an unusual amount of deaths. (too much to list here and more being realized)
* In February of 2004, after escaping a perpetrator's California home, where I felt that I had been drugged and raped (for the first time out of four), a spot on the side of my vagina hurt a little and kept itching. As I woke one morning I heard a voice say, "It itches because he started inserting a microchip, in order to control you sexually." This made no sense to me and I forgot it. . .and shifted into a silence that grew from my blaming myself for what had happened to me. The man I'd visited had claimed to be a friend of Dolly Pardon's and was obviously connected to some sort of dark occult and had spare/secret rooms in two of his homes. One contained bunk beds lined up in a room next to another room that contained several computer stations. I think the only reason I was able to escape was because a couple of Jehovah Witnesses witnessed me being there. (I had given this man's name and address to the FBI, but nothing has been done about it.) In this same couple of weeks I woke as a voice said, "Someone is getting into your computer." And I now believe that this is when my songs were stolen. (I now think that they felt safe messing with me because they had just AGAIN destroyed the relationship between myself and a few friends, my older brother and my father for the second time. I was alone in the world.
* In the summer of 2006, as I woke, I heard a voice say, "Your children will be Ok if you leave." I didn't know, until recently, that this meant to go with those who target me. I’m not going.
* In the summer of 2006 I was sneakily emptying my RV's septic tank into buckets and putting them into a dumpster in a camp ground. In the middle of this disgusting task I heard someone say, "That's it. Just one more" as I began refilling a bucket. The voice sounded like it was coming from outside of me - like right next to me, although nobody was there. This happened twice and I searched the area to find nobody anywhere near me. I did begin wondering if I were starting to go crazy at this point.
* In the fall of 2006 I had been praying for God to show me what was wrong with me, after several times of being rushed to emergency rooms with unusual neurological symptoms. (I had spent thousands of dollars on medical tests that showed nothing wrong with me.) At this time I had a dream that said, "You have Lupus." The next time that I ended up in an emergency room due to severe pain in my head, loss of balance and eyesight... I asked them to test for Lupus. Immediate tests confirmed an autoimmune disease and white cell count being off. After more tests to eliminate all other autoimmune diseases the conclusion was Lupus. Those who target me have since tried to deny this and had even gone to the extent of brainwashing my daughters into thinking I never really had Lupus and was just making it up. (They must have been snoozing in their surveillance chair when the doctor who referred me to a Rheumatoid specialist sent me a letter stating the test results and making this recommendation. (I have copied this letter and sent it to several people)
* Around the 2006 fall / 2007 winter I heard the words,
"Turn the radio on. Turn the radio on" echoing in my head,
as if it was my own thoughts, but stronger. I began saying,
"Turn the radio on" out loud and felt baffled by it. I turned
the radio on and heard, for the first time, a popular country music singer's version
of a song I wrote in February 2004. This is how
they let me know that my song had been stolen and made into
a hit for the thieves. Does this point to psychotronic weapons
being in the hands of criminal parts of the entertainment industry?
Very possibly. (My experiences also point to them being in the hands
of a satanic occult.)
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copyright 2012 - 2014 - My articles on mind control,
which were also posted on the "Peace Pink" TI support forum,
from Feb to April
2012 had been erased from that site.
Original files were deleted from my computers.
There is a series of manipulations, which aim to cover
the fact that I had a small paper professionally printed on April
24 - 2012, which exposed the targeting.
And my web sites may still be blocked from public view.
This all seems so crazy! It appears that those who
target us also want their own operatives
to steal credit for exposing THEIR targeting!
Wouldn't that be a hell of a way for them to
remain in positions of influence. (pun intended)
I do not need credit, because that is not why I do what I do,
but it deeply concerns
me that lies, and perpetration, and negative influences
on humanity could continue standing tall
even through the exposure of these crimes.
There is something horribly wrong with that picture.